Ramblings at 3 am

I'm awake at this unGodly hour because I'm sick. This is not a fun cold. I have to be up for work at 6 am so I'm thinking that the day ahead of me is going to be majorly un-fun.
So, as I was laying awake for awhile before I got up to peruse the internet, I started having a mini panic attack thinking about how my life (our lives) will change in about 5 months or so. I'm sure I can do this having-two-babies-at-once thing, but I'll do things in my day now and think, "well, THAT won't be happening when I have three kids under three."
Some things that scare the hell out of me:
1. How am I going to breastfeed two babies? I loved nursing Zach and look so forward to doing it again with the twinkies. But, there were days when I felt that all I did was sit on the couch with my boob out...how can I do that with a 2.4 year old running amok?
2. I get stir crazy if I don't get out with Z every day. How will I do that with three kiddos? It'll take me 2 hours just to load the car! It'll look like I'm going on a two week trip to the grand canyon when in reality, I just need to buy milk.
3. Babysitting is going to cost us a small fortune now. And, who wants to watch 3 kids? We have awesome friends and a great list of babysitters, but the cost alone may be prohibitive. Do I need to assume I won't be going on a date with Jeff for the next 13 years?
4. Speaking of babysitting...what about vacation? We don't do much now, but not because I wouldn't like to. Even our camping trips are going to take on a life of their own. And again, cost-wise...yikes. Are we destined to vacation at Costco? And will that probably FEEL like a vacation?
5. My patience can wear thin with Z, and I'll need to step outside to take a breather or whatnot...where can I load up on patience? Anyone know? Is there a store that I can check out? Maybe order some online?
6. With Z, I was able to take the advice, "sleep when baby sleeps." What happens now? Will there ever be a time when all three sleep at once, for longer than 15 minutes?
7. How am I going to use my Baby Bjorn with two? I LOVED that thing with Z. Do they make a double Bjorn?
8. Will I ever do my hair again?
9. And make-up?
10. Am I going to look like that mom with the crazy hair, dark circles under the eyes, big old muffin top hanging over every pair of pants I own, boobs hanging down to my knees....I'll stop because I'm starting to hyperventilate again.
11. Will I ever watch Oprah again?
12. How am I ever going to find quality time with just Z and I? Will he feel neglected? Will I feel guilty? (I assume I'll feel guilty, I think that's part of being a parent.)
13. Will I be able to return to work? If not, can we make it work financially on one salary? I know we can, but does that mean I'll have to start cutting my own hair at home? Eating Top Ramen and casseroles that last 13 days?

Ok, that's enough for now. It's almost 4 o'clock. I need to try to get some sleep.
I'm sure there'll be more later.